In the Middle

So we have some idea how our perspective has evolved and where we presently find ourselves having settled this far. But as confident as we (usually) feel in this perspective and desire to lead a simple, sustainable life, we also have a strong sense currently of being in the middle. Of course, we hope our perspective and goals will keep evolvling as we go, not simply stagnate where they are right now, in which sense we're always in the middle. But this particular time in our lives feels different.

It really all started with this house. We wrote a bit about how that all came about when we first found it, so I won't rehash that here. But suffice it to say that there is no doubt in our minds that we were rather yanked out of our daily lives and led to this house as the beginning of a new journey on which, in some ways, we're just along for the ride. That a force greater than us (insert your understanding here) has something in mind for us and is in the process of bringing it about. So here we are in this new house, more than half a year later and well into making it our own. But it doesn't seem to be the end of the story. There is still that exciting and somewhat disconcerting sense that we are smack in the middle, at a point where the way forward is still being decided - or maybe we just don't see what it is or how to get there yet.

We've been given this house in this place which gives us joy and really is, in it's history and being, a homestead. We've been given the desire to live a simple, sustainable, hands-on kind of life. We've been given inspirations, opportunities and provisions large and small that only affirm that desire. We've also been given a growing impetus for change from greater stresses and pressures from the outside. And so we find ourselves both struggling to keep up with daily life that just never slows down, and yet at the same time dreaming and researching about changes we could make to live a life more susutainable (in a whole life kind of sense - body and soul as well as ecological) and true to our vision. I think we both find ourselves alternately excited at the prospects and possibilities and holding onto our hats choosing to trust that we'll see the next step in time to avoid a full face-plant. One thing that is for sure, is it is never a boring ride.